I won´t lie to you... I´m a little bit homesick today. But not enough to come home so no worries!

I feel like a little bit of everything is happening all at once.
I have a story that I would like to share:

A couple weeks ago we met a family of a husband, a wife, and a 22 year old daughter.
 (the husband) has met with the missionaries before.  He has a book of Mormon and he loves learning about religion.
(the wife) is soooo nice and realizes that we can´t sit back and wait for things to happen if we want something.
  (the daughter) works, has a boyfriend and is just content with life!

We walk by their house on a daily basis and Sister LeBaron and I have stopped and talked to them on one occasion.
About a week ago we ran into the husband coming out of a bar. He actually walked up to us and said hi first.
We then started talking and marked a day to go back and talk with him and his family.
And we did. And they are an amazing family. We shared Joseph Smith´s experience and they had so many questions!
They wanted to know more and the spirit was so thick we could cut it with a knife! (i´ve never understood this phrase)
We visited with them 2 more times. Invited them to church. Invited them to pray. Invited them to be baptized.
None of which they wanted to do.
This confused me. I KNEW they felt the spirit. In one visit we helped the wife to pray and has she did tears streamed down her face.
That isn´t just a normal occurrence. She felt the love of God and there wasn´t a dry eye in that room.

Last night we met with them for the last time. We discussed what they believe. Life. The love of God. Faith.
And then we asked them why they don´t want to go to church. They couldn´t answer.
And this is when it hit me. Agency. They have agency. They don´t have to act even if they know it´s true.

They believe in God. They believe in the bible, the book of Mormon, all of the miracles. But they don´t want to have to do anything to have these blessings.
In truth they already feel as though they have been blessed enough in their lives and don´t need any more blessings.
They are content enough now that they don´t feel the need to have to do anything.

And then I got hit in the face again. Humility. God pleads for us to have humility every day.
Those who are humble inherit the kingdom of god. Not because it´s a good trait to have.
But because without it, we feel like we can do it alone. We feel like we don´tneed it.

Happiness and contentment is great to have here on earth, but there is so much more after death.
And how can we be so bold to say that we will inherit all the promises from God in the Bible without doing the things that God asks of us in that same Bible?
How can we be so bold to think that we know better?

God put us here, he gave us scriptures to understand where we came from, why we´re hear, and where we´re going.
And gave us the cheat code to accomplish everything we want and need.

I honestly don´t understand why it is so hard for so many to believe.
But even so... it is.  And because of this I will work harder. I will talk to every person I meet to give them the opportunity to know what I know.

Last night with this family was one of the hardest lessons I´ve had thus far.
Filled with emotion, tears, urgency, and pleading in my heart... but at the same time respect for  their agency.

The walk home was harder.

I will never forget them. I will never forget that experience. And I will never forget why I am here.
They will always be in my prayers.  The one thing that I can be sure of is that God will never give up on them. They are his children and he wants them to come home.

Until then... he will lead us to those who are ready now.

I love you all. Stay strong and know that God wants happiness for you more than you do.
Until next week.